I have always thought that “Out of Order” was a peculiar phrase.  As if something is working it’s in order, but if it’s broken something has become out of place.  It’s misaligned.  Is that true for us too?

There are certainly days that are harder than others.  Some days I feel misaligned.  Some days I feel I want to hang an “out of order” sign around my neck.  Maybe the kids could just fend for themselves.  Maybe dinner would magically appear.  Maybe the invisible box that someone is putting around me will mysteriously vanish!  Fat chance!

Thankfully, over the last few years, I have realized my “out of order” days have improved.  This is thanks to all my spiritual teachers reiterating the same thing…LET GO AND LET GOD!  The more I would push and force things to happen, the more of a struggle my life was.  If I were a train, my tracks did not align.   It would all work short term, but then my body and soul would check out and I was in need of an “out of order” sign.  My anxieties would run high and I would begin the internal dialogues that would not stop.  I would be up all night worrying about something that was NO BIG DEAL!   And then I would be mad at myself for losing sleep for the no big deal. The next day I would be cranky because I lost sleep over the no big deal.   So then it was hard to forgive myself because I was cranky and unforgiving because I really wanted sleep.  All to finalize realize, it was NO BIG DEAL!  I could have stopped the whole derailment if I would have changed my initial thought.  So, now, I try to live in the no big deal world.  I try to follow life where it may lead me knowing God has the highest intentions for me.  I don’t mind being a follower because I certainly don’t want to be the bully for pushing things along.  And the more I will Let God lead me, the less “out of order” signs I will need.